I am still an atheist. But working with a sponsor, working the Steps and listening to other Al-Anon members eventually led me to a concept of a Higher Power that might seem abstract to some but works for me. I still say “God” when I read the Twelve Steps or say the Serenity Prayer, but I define that word for myself, without worrying how others interpret it.
I’m thankful I found BIPOC meetings One of the good things that came out of the pandemic is access to many more Al-Anon meetings. For a long time I attended one weekly in-person meeting. Sometimes I would attend more if I was having a particularly hard week, or if my schedule was not too busy….
Today both programs are an integral part of my life. I do service in both, have home groups in both, and sponsor in both. My “Al-Anon defects of character” will get me drunk if I’m not careful, and my “alcoholic thinking” will destroy my healthy relationships if I don’t stay on the ball. That’s why, after all this time, I’m still a grateful “double winner.”